Elmo's World

Failures

2011-03-07T01:52:00.002+08:00

I failed one of my papers this week. This is my first failure in exams and the course was Physics. It has never occurred to me that I am so weak in physics: in fact, I thought I would ace physics due to my excellence in this course during my high school academic years. Though it may seem that I took this failure lightly, I have never felt so disappointed with myself before. Determination is a key of success loses its meaning after this failure. Hours spent in tutorials, completing problem sets and studying were not worth it at all. The 48% mark which I got really dampen all my hopes and dream of being able to be in the Honour's List this semester. I found it hard to even gain my composure and confidence in writing my Mechatronics midterm paper right after finding out this failure.

I do know that failures MUST occur so that one can value success. However, the timing is so inappropriate: I was just on a verge in getting out a difficult time and I have been more determined to do well this year if compared to my previous 2 years in university. Spending more time in school, being more focussed in lectures and stayed up late just to prepare for a better than average project or design made me so tired of working this semester. This failure only made me feel like giving up: it somehow makes me feel that effort is hardly ever rewarded. This too, is true in the working world whereby hard workers are often disregarded while intelligent workers get all the attention. Intelligence are genetically driven: I doubt one can mould this intelligence in oneself. Thus, does that mean that success is also genetically driven?

1 Malaysia

2009-05-24T09:57:00.003+08:00

People, so-called divided based on age, status, intellectual standard, height, etc etc aren't so easily divided as said. Division among people to various groups is a tedious job and we ought to just forget about these divisions and just live happily together, without any discrimination. yes, some may say one race leads the other. how true is this? untrue. each and every race has a thorn, a black sheep among them. no race is flawless. no race leads. some may also say older men are wiser. untrue. what bout women?(haha, sorry) It's rare, but cases do occur where older men have to listen to their young C.E.O of their company. N, not all old men have great wisdom. Rape, crime, etc cases do involve older generation too, sometimes. Ok, forget the junk. What I'm trying to say is that people ought to be united, despite nature's action in making some of us white, some of us black, some of us brown. Unity is the greatest strength of a nation. And as a Malaysian, I'm hoping that all races shouldn't discriminate one another to gain greater achievements. We haven't reached our greatest ability yet, because we haven't reached our goal yet: satu bangsa, satu negara. Kopitiam owners of different races do not discriminate each other. Trishaw pullers of different races never say his/her race is better than his co-worker's race. I've heard loads of Penangites who are not Chinese speak in Chinese dialects. Therefore, if we, Penangites can do this, why can't other Malaysians? Talk to your friends, regardless of their race. Discuss with them on football, badminton, movies, etc. Rent a house with them (if you have to), without worrying that their rituals may bother you. Hang out with them without worrying that friends of your own race may give you a weird look. If we don't start doing all these, who will? Just don't discriminate, it sucks. Bai bai...elmo out~!

Penang, Malaysia: My Home

2008-08-03T09:11:00.003+08:00

Malaysia is truly an amazing place to live if political chaos does not exist. every state in Malaysia deserves positive comments esp Penang. no, being a Penangite certainly does not influence me to make such a bias comment. come over to Penang n see it for urself. there's no other place in Msia where you cn get to eat such amazing tasty-licious Penang laksa n ice kacang. now, don't brag about laksa or ice kacang from other states cz jz accept it, Penang food is definitely the best in Malaysia, like it or not. anyway, Penang has lotsa tourist attractions too but many of us do not regard it as an attraction most probably because we r too used to the beauty of Penang. yes, one may say that Penang has been regarded as a "trash land", but things r not that bad nowadays. at least, some of us hv the correct mindset n try to clean the environment ( by throwing the rubbish into the dustbin, etc ). Penang has places to hike, places to jog, places to go for mountain biking n etc. most of us do not realise this because it's become more like our routine to go for a jog or hike. therefore, it is not wrong for me to say that Penangites r far more healty than other folks in Malaysia. try asking your friends or relatives from other states whether do they exercise normally? i'm sure most of them will say that they hv no time or no place to do those kinda stuff. in Penang, people tend to eat more n don't practise dieting (which is good ) but exercise more. ok, some may say that the weather in Penang is hot n stuff like that, n yeah, i do admit it. however, come to think about it, does it really matter cz most of us r staying in air-conditioned houses ( not me, though ). living in Penang will save pplz lotsa money too. this is because the food here is cheaper, compared to KL, of course n the fuel will not cost much as the roads here r short. moreover, one can cycle or walk to their destination as Penang is not a huge state. elsewhere, they hv to use the highway, etc. n those will surely make the transportation cost to increase, thus making it harder for pplz living there to make ends meet (though it may be exaggerating as it won't really affect that much). the bottomline is Penang's the best place to live in. elmo out~!

batman: the guardian

2008-07-20T13:57:00.002+08:00

batman is definately the best action packed movie that i've watched so far. it surpasses every single damn movie....batman is seriously incredible n those who hate it suck although i do respect the fact that different pplz hv different thoughts. bt i m unable to think how anyone could possibly hate this freaking awesome movie. joker was awesome n so was batman n most of the stuff in that movie exists n they're not fake. some pplz dont know that fact, n they claim that batman is jz like transformers: a fake. the cars, the ropes, the suit, the...everything.....is real. this 2 n a half hour movie certainly will nt bore u, unlike harry potter...sorry to those lightning-scared boy fans. those potter movies suck, n no doubt bout it. those movies r trully FAKE! anyway, back to batman, batman's great....n those who hate it jz dnt appreciate good movies. bye..elmo out~!

feelings:happy/sad

2008-07-16T23:29:00.002+08:00

to me, there r only two types of feelings one can have n nothing in between. either we r down or we r on cloud 9, there's nthing in between. there's no such thing as hvng the highest joy. every joy will be overcome by the subsequent joy later in life. for instance, we may feel happy when we pass UPSR with flying colours n at that time, it is our greatest joy. however, as time passes n then we manage to pass with A's in SPM, this joy will surpass the previous "greatest" joy. i know, i'm crapping. anyway, what i'm trying to say is that there's no such thing as hving the greatest joy. we feel happy when:
1. we get everything, though it's impossible
2. we feel appreciated, though appreciation often are insincere
3. we feel loved, though the only people who truly love us are our parents
4. we learn something, though we never think of sharing the knowledge to otherss
5. we have something which others lack
on the other hand, sadness is kinda....gloomy n it will stick to u for a longer time. joy is temporary, while sadness, to me is kinda.....it takes a long time to stop being sad. actually, there's not a single moment in our life where we don't feel sad. we feel sad when we obtain good results while our best friend don't do the same. we feel sad when we win a tournament, bt not our team. we feel sad when we spend time with our family, bt our friends r neglected. every joy is followed closely by sadness, therefore there's no such thing as "oh, i am not sad at all"...anyway, we feel sad when:
1. we are betrayed, esp by pplz whom we really care about
2. the person whom we love don't love us, n that does not exclude our family members
3. we don't achieve what we want, although those dreams r sometimes too high
4. we FEEL that we r alone
5. we fail in everything that we do
i dnt know what i'm mumbling about, as usual...take care, God bless...elmo out~!

i'm pro-Msia

2008-07-16T22:53:00.002+08:00

the BTN camp managed to change my perception on Msia after all, esp the government. now, i realise that being a Chinese, which is not supposedly the anak bumi jati of Msia, I should be really thankful towards the government as they have helped me so much, especially by giving me the opportunity to study abroad due to the JPA scholarship. thanks! i realise that everything the government is doing is for the rakyat's benefit n there's no one who can deny that fact. it may be true that some of the steps taken may not seem to benefit the rakyat, for instance the rise of the petrol price. the rise of petrol price will benefit us, guys....cuz if not, the Petronas company will collapse n the government will so definately suffer. who's gonna rule us then? no idea...it may be easy for everyone to condemn the government. even in our SPM essays, we often write "kerajaan patut", etc. bt, think about it, how is it possible to overcome every single problem occur when no one is trying to curb them? all we do is talk, talk, talk....but not even a single person is trying to voice out the steps to the government. pplz r only expressing their opinion on what has been done by government, bt none r trying to list out the steps that should be taken by the government. what i'm trying to say is the government is actually defending every rakyat's rights n no one should doubt it no matter how bad their steps may appear. it may appear unclear, i know, bt dn't bother....elmo out~!

malaysia: my home

2008-07-12T09:28:00.001+08:00

malaysia is my home. malaysia is my land. malaysia is the place where i'm gonna stay. i love u, malaysia.

my talent: finding faults

2008-07-06T14:42:00.002+08:00

i guess i'll write b4 i leave penang for kl for the BTN camp. it's just a dumb camp, held by JPA to brainwash us. fingers crossed, they aren't gonna succeed. i've always been a hater of everything, n i really mean everything. to me, everything depises me. however, there're a few exceptions of course, n those who r close to me should know who or what they are. nowadays, i'm starting to have more hatred towards everything around me n the worse part is, i often criticise them which leads to negative effects(arguments, etc). see, being outspoken isn't a good thing. haha. i've been keeping myself busy with cycling, hiking, walking, etc. gonna continue swimming when i get to toronto. lolz. the news bore me nowadays. the stuff in the newspapers r crap cuz most of them r neither good news nor news which concern us. so, why bother reading them? go ahead if u wanna read about sodomy, bribery, atlantuya, etc. people start suing each other more n more without realising that they are actually making themselves suffer due to the time n money they have to sacrifice. motorists n motorcyclists r getting more n more dangerous n the victims r mostly pedestrians n cyclists, like me. n the public transports r getting more n more useless. penang's not getting anything: no monorial, no 2nd bridge, nothing! we penangites have to suffer because of them, politicians. bloggers r now closely monitored, proving again that being outspoken will not benefit any1 in m'sia. musicians still hv no chance to make a living in m'sia as no one r supporting the local music industry. pplz say that it's the musicians themselves who should be put to blame: they r useless singers, etc. but that's not the case, they are talented, it's just that no one is making any effort polishing them. the craze for money is getting everyone mad. people r getting more selfish. more n more realise that it is true that "the rich gets richer while the poor gets poorer" based on the current situation. with the domino effects of the petrol price hike, the poor can barely survive nowadays as everything gets more n more expensive. this will definately result in the increment of the crime rate. again, the pplz of m'sia will suffer. perhaps we r getting nearer to the end of the world. maybe the end of the world does not literaly mean that the Earth is gonna fall apart. perhaps, it means that people will start killing each other, demolishing the human race. that's gonna happen.....n it's not long from now. elmo out~! God bless everyone....no matter how good or how bad they are or WERE.

leaving....

2008-07-03T21:17:00.002+08:00

i can't believe i'm leavin malaysia soon. it may not be permanent, but still, i do feel some kinda sadness in leaving penang. penang's an awesome place. to compare it to kl, kay elle's crap. cuz....err...penang has great food, great pplz n most of all, i understand the language n they understand me...haha! anyway, after living in penang for the most of my life, i feel kinda sad leaving, esp leaving my closest friends n my family. i hope my destination would be better than penang although it is kinda obvious that toronto is far better than penang. err....besides from the cold weather which everyone from msia yearns, i hope i can find better lifestyle there. better lifestyle does not neccesarily means random sex, etc. i say no to pre-maritial sex, mind u...i hope the people there r nicer....not that rude, not that lansi like most pplz here in msia esp when they r successful n stuff...being able to walk n cycle around in the country is definately gonna be nice. i love walking n i love cycling cuz those r my only transports as i do not like to rely on my parents in taking me somewhere....haha. this post seems like trash to me, but i dn't care...i'm gonna publish it anyway. err...what else to add? oh yeah....i'm gonna miss my elmos bt luckily they're under good care as mom's gonna take care of them, i think...thanks mom! haha. bt, err...i'm gonna bring one elmo, just to remind myself that i still hv a family at home to take care n should not forget my responsibility...lolz...responsibility...haha...elmos' leader, that's who i m...haha. lalala...what else....darn...i dn't know what else to write....oh yeah...i cnt download songs anymore when i get there...darn....no more illegal downloading...sad...argh...nvm, i'll download until i puas here in penang....lalala....bob's not here, i cnt go out that often....sad...haha...anyway, that's all...bai bai...elmo out~!

i miss being me....

2008-07-03T18:28:00.002+08:00

err....how should i start explaining??? ok, err....i used to be such an amazing joker esp in school n thus, living up to my name:elmo. it used to be fun joking around with pplz in my class, esp in form 2. with my close friends like nazz and hogan, just to name a few. often, we joke without bothering about others' feelings or etc cuz we know that he won't bother. although there's actually someone who often cries in our class due to our cruel critics on him(sorry), we didn't really bother cuz we know that after that, we will make up with him and be friends again. however, things rn't the same now. friends r getting more n more sensitive n the word sorry seem unable to make things up anymore. haiz....sad that i can't really express myself anymore these days cuz i often hv to take others' feelings into consideration. how i wish every single person is like me: forgive n forget easily....argh, forget it....i wanna be a kid again cuz of the innocence a kid has. getting a new toy, no matter how cheap or expensive is enough to make a child happy. every child is temperament n they forget easily. dang...i'm repeating myself....nvm, the bottomline is, i sosososo wanna be a kid again...n i wanna hv my mom as my mom n my sis as my sis n my dad as my dad n my aunt as my aunt n my second aunt as my second aunt cuz they're the best family i've ever had. i love them n nothing's gonna change that fact. friends come n go, but not them. i can't lose them, not after losing so many of my friends in the past. i wanna thank God for placing me in my mom's womb and letting her take so great care of me throughout my life. i wanna be her son she expects me to be, yet i often disappoint her. forgive me for the times i show my tantrum at her. it wasn't intentional, it's just that...i'm temperament. without her, i'm nothing in this word. it is of utmost certainty that i would hv been a drop out in skewl without her. i would hv been a criminal, perhaps. thanks mom, i truly appreciate everything u've done for me though i don't really express it whenever i'm with u. lalala...thanks for cooking dinner for us, thanks for bringing bob n me up, thanks for taking care of the family although they go against u most of the time, thanks for cheering us up when we're in a bad condition, thanks for everything.....err....i think i've steered out of topic, but who bothers? haha.....kayz...elmo out~! God bless anyone that's reading...take care n be good...

when will it stop rising?

2008-07-03T00:41:00.002+08:00

nowadays, everything r rising. the fuel price, the hatred among politicians, n even our age, to those who may not have realised. as time passes, we often hope that we would be questioned "how young are you" instead of "how old are u". as time passes, our response gets slower and everything we do seems to be in a mess. every decision we make gets more and more important. as we grow older, we start to think how dumb we have been in trying to make things so perfect although we know that nothing really is flawless and perfection is almost impossible. however, have we ever managed to stop our age from rising or perhaps to pause for a moment and think, perhaps this is just a dream? perhaps we would wake up from this bad dream and get into reality. perhaps heaven is reality and this is just a dream? if this is a dream, it's really getting bad. weather's becoming worse, wars r getting more and more terrible and pplz r getting more and more dangerous. scientific research r unable to prove anything anymore now. things are unpredictable. no one expects things to happen nowadays. it just happens n we learn to accept it the way it is. the hike of petrol price was not expected to be so tremendous, the commotions in our government were not expected to be so bad, the crime rate was not expected to rise just because there are more polices on duty. so, just take time to take all this in and just relax. stop predicting what will happen tmr n live today. make today as if it's ur last day n make it ur best day. God bless.....elmo out~!

screw everyone

2008-06-29T01:12:00.003+08:00

i just hate every1 right now. if u r a male, i hate u. if u r a female, i hate u too. no exceptions. i just hate it! fuck everyone....fuck, fuck, fuck....go screw urself. fucking bitches n bastards....fuck it n go fuck off. i don't need u, go, go, go, go fuck! screw ur mother fucking fucker. fucklah.....

my perception on everything i detest

2008-06-29T00:43:00.002+08:00

everything that i write is negative, but i don't care cuz pplz write when they r inspired, n i'm inspired to write whenever i'm down/depressed, so it greatly affects those negative things. let me just list down the things that i detest:

1. Cigaratte - it sucks when pplz smoke. they pretend to be someone cool, but they seriously aren't. this mentality of theirs will eventually kill themselves. smoking outside the room, puffing away while others in the room look at them certainly make them feel as if they r the "daredevils" or the great ones. how dumb r they cuz those stuff only kills their money n their body. some may say that life is priceless, but i doubt it is true anymore in their mentality

2. Liars - it sucks when people lie to u, n eventually u find out. i may lie, but my lies rn't that bad cuz it don't really affects pplz. whatever it is, liars sucks. i've been cheated lotsa times, but....don't care la. let them do whatever they want. as if i dont know about their lies.

3. Football - it is depressing to WATCH pplz chasing for the ball. just PLAY it if u really love football. what's the point of watching n then gamble n eventually lose ur money? what's the point of arguing just because of the teams pplz support? what's the point of fuck.....what's the point of football? it's just an entertaiment not worth watching...

4. Beggars - idiotic beggars who have a pair of legs n hands, fuck urselves. go find a job instead of begging for pplz's money. pplz don't work to pay u guys. go work urself. begging is simple, n it is not ought to be done. so, go work

5. Literature/Art/Whatever that is intellectual - it sucks when pplz read all those stuff just because it makes them more intellectual. if it bores u, stop reading for goodness sake. just throw that damn fucking book away n read a comic or smthing. no one likes literature n everyone knows that. if u like it, u suck cuz it's never meant for humans.

i can't keep writing....if i continue writing, this whole damn post will be full of foul words. but who cares? it's my liberty to write, so, i'll continue writing, but not regarding the things i detest. but just random statements.

1. I wish life is a fairytale:I wanna live happily ever after
2. I wish I don't have to suffer; though my sufferings rn't that bad
3. I wish I can have anything; though there is no definite line for anything
4. I wish everything burns when I'm gone; though it is selfish
5. I wish I would wake up and realised this is a nightmare; though it really isn't one

1. I wanna be alive.
2. I wanna be hopeful.
3. I wanna be joyful.
4. I wanna be free.
5. I wanna be a kid again.

Being a kid is marvelous. i so wanna be a kid n that explains my liking towards elmo. elmo,.....u r the bestest creation man has ever created.....bye...elmo out~!

recreation of the past

2008-06-29T00:26:00.002+08:00

friends.....again, this is another post on friends. i hv no idea y i value my friends so much although they don't hv the same affection towards me. maybe i'm just sensitive, maybe not. whatever it is, i've had lotsa bad experiences regarding friendships n it just sucks cuz it's occuring again. all those sufferings that i hv to undergo during my high school years, esp form 5 is repeating. it is as if it is never ending n it is fated for me to keep being a failure in friendships. all these years, i've been telling myself that friends r nthing but a group of pplz which come n go. but i can never treat them that way. i give hundred percent to them n i expect the same from them. however, it is sad that most of them don't. it's ok, cuz i hv my family to lean onto. fortunately. again, this is not a post for pplz to take symphaty on me. u don't hv to read it if u don't want to, it's just my way to express, that's all. when things r harsh, when times r bad, i expect them to get better as the time passes, but sadly, it does not happen that way. it keeps continuing n gets worse. my trip to my mom's kampung made me realise that it is the family ties that remains strong n not the friendship ties. all this while, i've been trying so hard to find a true friend, a friend whom i can trust, whom i can tell all my sorrows, who can make me laugh at all times n esp who pay attention to me, yet he/she never appears. my close friends come n go. this year's best friend may not be my next year's friend. it's sad to let it occur this way, to let such an amazing friendship go just like that but i m unable to do anything to stop it from letting it go. being happy all the while is just a false appearance from me. i m not at all a happy person, not with the sufferings which i've seen n gone through all this while. life isn't a fairy tale, isn't like in movies where pplz hv such close friends whom they can lean on to at anytime. life is a burden which one has to undergo, not because he/she wants to, but he/she has to. often, when we're in a low state, we turn to God, but do we ever pray to Him whenever we r blessed with amazing wealth/friends/families? never. only the poor, only the sufferes pray, the others who enjoy their luxurious life hardly ever give a thought about God. my life is crap, but yet, I'll go through it cuz i hv learned to appreciate it cuz it's a God's blessing to live in this world.....

thank you KJ

2008-06-21T12:19:00.001+08:00

yo, i wanna thank you, KJ for all the times u spent msging me, talking crap to me when i'm sososososo bored...haha...thanks for being my friend. haha....i don't know what else to say le....haha...bye..elmo out~!

i hate him!!!

2008-06-18T17:07:00.002+08:00

i hate u so much! u r an old man with useless personality n all. i may have just thanked u, but i wanna take it back. i hate u for who u r....really hate u badly....itz cuz of u, everyone suffers, including me. i hate u, n i feel like killing u cuz u don't belong in this world. i may not be able to clean my closet, but i so wanna pack ur things n throw it away. u may call other people to clean their own closets, but u should do it urself first. it seems as though it is pointless buying stuff for u, playing with u n all....cuz u just do that when u feel like doing it. there has never been a time when u do it cuz it's ur responsibility. u know who u r, n i don't feel like saying out loud who the hell u r. u may keep praying to God, but i hope He won't help u cuz u have not tried helping urself. keep depending on others for everything, n i will pray for ur death. i know i m ur *** but it does not mean i can't hate u. who the hell won't hate u for what u hv done? i hate u n i pray that u suffer alone, n without us. i pray to be able to leave this place forever n never have to look at u anymore. the only reason i wanna leave penang is u....everytime u call, i've always wanted to reject ur call, but i'm not that heartless to do that. u say that everything u do is cuz of me but my faith in ur words is going weaker cuz of what u hv done. actions speak louder than words n though u never hurt me directly, indirect hurt is sometimes more painful. i hate u not because of what u've done to me, but because of what u've done to pplz close to me, people whom i really care about. i've tried caring for u, but it seems pointless. i don't celebrate special occassions regarding u anymore cuz u r not worth celebrating with. all these while, u keep telling me to be careful, but hv u been really sincere in giving those advices? people r dying to leave u, haven't u notice? u keep telling people to leave, but they rn't cuz they love and care for u. instead of appreciating, u....forget it, u're not worth talking about. but, still, i wanna talk about it cuz this post will show the hatred i have towards u. badminton and football used to be my favourite games cuz of u. but everytime i look at my racquet and football, i think of u n all of a sudden, those memories with u rekindle. they were sweet memories, yes, i still love u, but i jz cannot accept those things that u've done. rollercoasters and dangerous activities have been avoided by me cuz of ur advices, but now, i realise that i'm avoiding the wrong things. smoking n gambling is not ur habit, it's ur routine. try as i might hating u for having that routine, i m unable to change u. inability to change u cause me to hate u n that hatred is not going to stop....i will keep on hating u and loving u at the same time. sorry for hating u, but i think that's the most appropriate thing to do. bye...elmo out~!

something to please everyone

2008-06-17T23:19:00.002+08:00

ok...err, this will be a decent post from me after a long time. i think a song moved me and the readings of my previous posts made me write this post. alright, i wanna take this opportunity to thank everyone from ICPU programme who has directly and indirectly helped me. i wanna thank my family, esp my mom n my 2 aunts, n my sis n my dad for giving me their support. when i feel down, i will msg them cuz i know that they r the people who will always, always reply my messages. thanks. i may have hurt u guys a lot of times, but deep in my heart, i love u all. i hope u all know that. oi bob, if u r reading this, just read n keep quiet...don't tell mom. i wanna thank my friends from ICPU as well cuz without them, i would hv been like an isolated figure in kay-elle. thanks guys. err, i've learnt a lot from this programme. i've learnt to be independant n all, doing things on my own, living on my own, learn to show my tantrum whenever i am facing problems, etc, knowing that my family are the only people who truly love me without expecting anything in return. mom, although u may not read this, i wanna thank you so much. everything that i hv today, though it's not much or great is cuz of you. i jz wanna let u know that although i m rude at most times, i don't really mean it. sorry for everything and thanks for everything at the same time. i wanna thank my aunt for lending me her credit card for those applications. i wanna thank my other aunt for those expensive gifts u hv given me. the luxuries that i hv today r cuz of u, thanks. i wanna thank my dad for the toys he bought for me when i was small. it's because of him, i'm such a jovial guy: a guy who knows how to laugh n stay happy though full of emptiness n sadness inside. i wanna thank my sis cuz....cuz of what eh?? err...bob, thanks for making me more "intellectual", thanks for the elmos u've bought for me. although i argue with u a lot, those arguments kinda rock n i kinda miss them. haha....somehow, i feel that it's better if we argue. i wanna thank my elmos too...for praying with me to God. God, i wanna thank you for everything you've given me. thanks a lot. i wanna thank u too, if u're reading this. so long, bye...elmo out~! god bless....
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songs....

2008-06-17T22:25:00.003+08:00

Look What You Have Done- Jet
When You Look Me In the Eyes- Jonas Brothers
Life and Love and Why- Switchfoot
Hey There Dellilah- Plain White T's
ya know, it sucks when songs don't really please ur ears although they are rated 5 stars n etc. songs r subjective-they may be nice to one, but crap to others. i think....one should not try so hard, searching for songs that are unknown to others so that they can brag to others bout those songs that they know. songs should be shared, should be sing together and should be used to unite everyone. songs r created to entertain, not to brag to others. so to those who have been trying to find for unknown songs, chill....jz listen to those on the radio, etc.

2008-06-17T21:47:00.002+08:00

yay! i now know how to make use of this blog. use it to release my emotions. haha. kinda sucky cuz i hv to rely on such a useless media to release my tantrums. pplz use the press i use this useless thing called as blog. anyway, things that i do just can't seem to go right these days, ever since i return to Penang. it's not that i want it to happen this way, it just happens; i can't stop it!!! burden with so much things to do: visa application, driving n all, i make time limited for myself. now, i don't even have much time with my friends cuz i still hv to do medical check-ups n stuff. argh, hate it. anyway, life's been difficult for me cuz i've been living without my parents for a long time: a year n it's turned me into a very selfish person, according to my mom. i've become more hot tempered, arrogant n all. n the worse part is, i can't stop it from happening. day by day, i notice that i keep screwing people up for no reason n all. no wonder everyone, except my own family members r trying to keep themselves apart from me. life sucks, that's life-that's y we treasure our life when things r really sweet. the sweetness of life is temporary, the bitterness of it is kinda permanent. i'm crapping, i know, but i don't care. *feel like screwing pplz up again....chill, chill....* i used to think that life is easy: study, study, study, get a job, work, work, marry, n get kids. but....NO....it's not that simple. i now realise that even studying itself requires so much work that one can give up so easily. i almost gave up when i felt as though there is no end for studying. 4 years to go, n i reckon i'm gonna give up anytime. studying sucks, but working is even worse. gosh, hate everything. Penang is so damn hot nowadays...songs don't please my ears, pics don't please my eyes, all my senses cannot be pleased at all currently. i may not be at my lowest point of my life, but it still sucks cuz i m without my friends. luckily i hv my family with me. n God.

sick of everything

2008-06-16T23:20:00.002+08:00

hey, this post is unintentional. i have nothing else to do right now, so just feel like writing my thoughts down for a while. right now, i am so sick of evertyhing. listening to ryan star's songs, but somehow, they depress me even more. i just feel like abandoning my friends, and only caring bout my family. cuz i feel that my friends r always changing. i never have a true friend, someone who knows what i want, how i feel n all. the only people who know that are my family. i feel as though i'm dumb in trusting my friends so much, that they end up bruising me. my expectations of them r so high that they are not able to meet them. i have no idea why i cannot just have a simple friend, who won't argue with me n who will always be there when i need him/her. it just sucks that i have lotsa friend but i have none who cares for me. i know most will think that i m attention seeking n all by hving this post, but why bother? this blog doesn't really exist. it's just a website lost in millions, trillions n blablabla of all the many blogs. i don't really care cuz i know that no one will ever notice that this post exists. bye. elmo out~! to those who have been reading my post, quit while u can cuz there's none that's worth reading.

tasks due...this week...

2008-03-16T17:52:00.000+08:00

dang...i've got so much to do. i didn't realise until i start on my work this morning. hate is so much. i'm not resume on my work till this wednesday. it's like...the work keeps comin in. we even hv work n assignments during the holidays. crapolia! anyway, i had my chicken rice today. awesome stuff. still the best. conquered asia cafe in kl's chicken rice. in penang, the rice has more flavour(wonder what...hmmm). looking forward to do some activities here in penang(hiking, badminton, etc) but i doubt my friends will be free. i've updated my music files. more songs now. yippe! but not that much though. still in a moderate amount. i'm using my sis' old phone now. kinda crappy cuz it's slower than my previous cell. i'll continue using my cell when i get back to kl. sigh, the weather is so hot in penang. darn the weather! oh yeah, i watched elmo's movie just now. the adventures of elmo in...(somewhere)...i love the movie. he's so cute. like...argh...wish he's alive...but wait a minute, he is ALIVE....haha...what else...hmm...i think, there's nothing else to write about...cuz...i dunno what to write...cyz...chaoz...elmo out~

it's me again...finally revived

2008-03-16T01:05:00.001+08:00

hey guys! argh...i've been away for 2 years...wow...that's long...haha...anyway, i think that i ought to post something now. n if u wanna know how much i've changed over the past 2 years, do read on...haha...ok, first of all, after my spm examination, i further my studies at Taylor's....erm, i'm not rich. just lucky to be offered a scholarship. i'm currently staying in kl. kinda shitty cuz of the people there. though some may say that kl rocks n all, to me, penang is still the best place ever. best for both old folks and young kids like me to stay in. the program that i'm in now is kinda great. cuz it involves lotsa course work to keep me busy. haha...so, this explains of my non-existence in this blogging stuff. haha...that's my excuse. anyway, i'm currently hving my 1-week break now. however, it can't be considered a break cuz i hv lotsa work to do. erm....i'm living in subang jaya, in ridzuan condominium to be exact. my friends there r awesome, but i still can't forget the friendships which i've had with my friends here in penang. err....what else...my studies...still shitty like ever...my attitute....still rude as ever....not gonna change it cuz that's me. i'm not flawless. i hv flaws:being rude, disobidient, racist...lotsa stuff. but, if u know me well, i hv my own reasons for all those flaws. haiz...i hv a week of sufferings to undergo cuz i hv to study, study n study....n imagine studying during the holidays. like shit. but look at the bright side, i...no idea...gotta go now...(cuz someone is staring at me...creepy...bye) cyaz...elmo out~!

maaf

2005-10-29T00:32:00.000+08:00

hey, maaf kepada semua kawan kawan aku kerana aku sememangnya kurang prihatin dan mengambil berat tentang hal hal anda semua...sorry.bye

sniff...

2005-10-15T11:15:00.000+08:00

I am too old…darn…I can’t imagine that 15 years had passed…sniff..

Friends

2005-10-15T11:13:00.000+08:00

Friends. Love them or hate them, you cannot live without them. What is required in a friend? Good looking? Charming? Pretty? Or maybe understanding? There are times when your peers treat you lunch, or even give u something as a gift. However, are they really sincere or do they want something instead? Well, I can’t elaborate on that as I am not able to read their minds. I came across a friend of mine who would ignore me when I am online. The next day, I went up to him and asked him why he did that. In reply, he told me, ‘In fact, I did that for your own good. I don’t want you to spend your time talking to me and neglecting your studies’. Of course, I was shocked and stunned. I never knew that he was such a kind and caring friend. We then patched things up and we were best buds for 5 years until he had to follow his family to Kuala Lumpur. Things are different for me now. Friends would even back-stab you just because they want something in their life. Most of those who have loads of friends are affluent and popular. Those who are poor would not even feel that love and affection from their classmates. They would be neglected and remoted. Being treated that way, most of them would be a school dropout in future. Even their teachers don’t give them the attention that they need. Being from a poor family, I am very sure that most of them had to suffer in order to pay their school fees. To them, they go to school to socialize with people, make new friends and learn more things. However, things happen vice-versa instead. They indulge in drugs, the habit of smoking just for one purpose, to communicate with people around them. They do not care the implication of their actions. I have come across students who are materialistic. They would only mix with people who wear designer items. On the other hand, they won’t even say a word to those who wear inferior items. The world has changed indeed. Take a look at the recent newspaper. A 21 year old man would even drug his own girlfriend because he wants to have sex with her. Fucked up attitude, huh? Guess what happened after that? The unlucky girl, who was on high at that time, fell from a three-story flat. She is now admitted to the emergency room. Will she survive? Will she die? What happened to the man, you may ask. Well, what else? He fled, of course. The police are currently searching for him though. Ever come across friends who wouldn’t talk to you when they are busy talking to their group of friends? Don’t you think that that’s too much? Too much indeed. Bah….I wanna see how is my Elmo doing right now..haha! bye..elmo out~!

Musical Baton

2005-06-01T23:06:00.000+08:00

hmmm...what kind of songs do i like?? lemme think...Always by Bon Jovi, Love Is Blue by ( Dunno Who ), She's No You, Jesse McCarthy, The Remedy by Jason Marez, Bittersweet Swmphony by The Verve Pipe, I Don't Wanna Be by Gavin DeGraw, True by Ryan Cabrebra, 40 Kinds Of Sadness by Ryan Cabrebra, Saturday Night by Nick Carter, Incomplete by Backstreet Boys Five people to whom I’m passing the baton:err....no one, i reckon....

boo!

2005-05-31T11:31:00.000+08:00

Elmo’s production
Haha! Hey ya…..what’s up? Talking about footie..hmm….liverpool’s triumph was jz luck….nothing more than that. Itz true…Liverpool sux…ac Milan was a better team that day. However, it must have been the liverpool’s spell that made them lose. Who knows?? Oh yea…I read Singapore’s true ghost stories book 12 the other day. I jz figured out that the Singapore FC cast a spell during the Man.U vs Singapore FC match..hard to believe, huh? But itz true…I reckon that Man.U vs Arsenal was the best match after all….however, as an ardent man.u fan, I truly hate the referee….the goal was truly obvious! But, the referee didn’t acknowledge it as a goal. How sad. N the header by Ruud van Nistrelrooy…omigosh! How sad….that darn Freddie Lunjberg stopped the ball n hit the post….we shouldn’t blame Paul Scholes for not scoring the penalty kick. It wasn’t his fault after all….the keeper was awesome…that’s the only thing I can say about Arsenal. If compared to Roy Carroll, he’s amazing….hmm…what else??? Fernando Alonso…hmm…..a lot of wins for him, huh? Michael Shumacher jz managed to hold on to position number 5, right?? Or 6? Or 4?? Dunno…can’t recall anything about that. Wow! Stolen by Jay Sean is on Hitz.fm now…awesome! Hey walley haha! By reshmonu…wow….great song as well….Hollaback Girl jz hit the Rick Dees chart…I find it amazing cuz the song’s beat is nice…hahha….however, I don’t Wanna Know by Mario Winnans was better. Truly solid…the beat…wow! Colide by Howie Day is nice as well….i want feedback from all of u, k? if u want the Rick Dees Top 40’s list, jz tell me…thx.. Peace out, guys! Chaoz…elmo out~!

haha! new post....dedicated to...err...elmo..

2005-05-30T23:19:00.000+08:00

haha! what's up, guys? well, itz the same old elmo again. whatcha doin? i reckon that u r doing something that is forbiden, huh? haha...jz kidding. wow....the word forbiden makes remind of the Forbiden City...kewl, huh? imagine Jackie Chan acting in that movie...it was so cool! with owen nelson, i reckon....wow...solid! haha! nah, compared to Sesame Street, it is far too lame...wow! star wars...hmm...itz a damn lame show...however, jz take a look at it...cuz it'll be the last of the star wars movie...nah, itz a damn fake! itz not the last one!!! there's gonna be a prelude of it again...damn that Star Wars production! they fooled u! don't u get it? itz true..i m not kidding u guys....hmm...i kinda like Madagascar...itz awesome...however, i can't comment on it as i haven't watched it yet...haha! too bad for me then. well, well...what else is left??? err...oh yea! charlie n the chocalate factory! whoa! itz gonna be great...oh....5 people u meet in heaven was terribly nice! wonder when tuesdays with morrie is gonna be aired on Hallmark, huh? jz be patient and wait..haha! ok...it looks like i've got nothing else no say...so long for now..chaoz..elmo out~!

back again..never gone...

2005-05-29T22:28:00.000+08:00

Yo,guys! What’s up? Its been awhile since I update my blog, huh? Anyway, exams r over n whoa! I feel so awesome! Hahah! Well, as a matter of fact, I jz watched the final match between Peter Manfredo Jr. and Sergio Mora….it was an awesome match….n Sergio…oww! He was so touching….imagine him awarding the 1 million prize to his mom? Kewl….THE CONTENDER was truly solid….n with Sylvester Stallone n Ray Charles in it, whoa! Absolutely nice….oh yea….i watched lots of DVDs nowadays….since my ps2 can’t detect the games’ cd, I might as well use it as a DVD player…haha! So, so….American Idol 3 is over, huh? Nah, I m not sad, unlike my sis....as usual, I expected the blondie to win…true indeed…she won….and wrestling?? Uh-oh…it’s not that good anymore…since there’s no more The Rock, I won’t spend my time watching it…useless….imagine having people like Vince McMohan in it?? No way, dude….this year is truly the best year for me….i enjoyed a lot, made lots of kewl n funny friends….however, I m still mad over Chinese-eds….n imagine people comparing me to them? Oh my god…it feels like hell! Hmm….wonder how I’ll do in my exams….again, plz wish me luck in ur prayers, k? thank you….well, sis…where’s my elmo?? I want it by 25 june, k? u promised me….n promise is a promise…n not meant to be broken, unlike the rules….hey, the water level in our country is getting lower…therefore, every one of us must try to save every bit of precious water. Besides, the Wesak Day celebration was a success too…lots of people attend the ceremony….as usual, I was pushed by the people…so mean…anyway, that’s all I have to say for now..n to Kylie, god blez….ok…chaoz! elmo out~! Bai bai…

what's wrong?

2005-01-23T19:12:00.000+08:00

hey bob, what's wrong? i can't see my post 'sorry' from my website. i m blur. uh-oh. i m so dead.

Sorry...

2005-01-21T23:11:00.000+08:00

hey guys, i m sorry for not updating my blog. it is all because of the school work and all. well, this year's charity drive was a superb one. however, my class, 4Sc1 haven't collected that much amount yet. so, rich guys there, gimme a cheque k? itz not for me. but itz for the tsunami funds. n i got straight a's for my pmr! yahoo! n thx for ur prayers, k? i really appreciate it. however, i don't reckon i'll do well in my SPM. n y must David Beckham come back to Man United? i don't like him. n i hope Maria Sharapova will win Australian Cup! she rulez! n oh yea, bob, i've read ur books. the 5 person u meet in heaven is solid! espcially the ending. kinda give me the creeps...haha! what do u expect? i m a wimp..haha! alright, i guess that's about it for now. bye n c'ya. thx for ur comments. elmo out!

Penang! haha!

2004-12-26T13:49:00.000+08:00

Merry Christmas! Ho ho ho! Anyway, what’s up, guys? Erm...to those of u who don’t know when will the results be coming out, the fucking results will be released on 29th of December. So, enjoy urself first. However, I m extremely sure that all of u will pass with flying colors. So, don’t u worry. N oh yea, Penangnites felt an earthquake this morning about 9.50am. However, it wasn’t really that bad. It was jz a normal vibration. No great shakes. The doors rattle, the windows shook. Haha! Really funny. At first, I thought it was the monkeys again. But when I felt kinda dizzy, I made a conclusion that it was an earthquake. But it was funny as earthquakes shouldn’t happen at Penang. Alright, I guess, I should mop around this whole week. And the results? Three more days to doomsday. Alright, I guess that’s it for now. Bye n c’ya guys. Me, signing out as Elmo! Elmo out!

Monkey See, Monkey Do

2004-12-23T17:01:00.000+08:00

Hey, monkeys r really very smart! Truly smart! Some of them r even smarter than humans! However, they r very cheeky n naughty! Furthermore, they r not scared of us, humans! What’s happening to our world? Omigosh! Even monkeys r controlling us, humans! Guess what happened around my housing area. Those monkeys invaded our area! They ate our food, making loud noises n littering rubbish everywhere! N to make matter worse, we can’t even catch any of them! Although we have set up many traps, nothing worked out! Those monkeys r still wild n as bold as a lion! The residents in our area think that all of them r from the Botanical Garden! Those people who often feed them make them wild! They want more food! Without food, they’ll release their temper! N their kids r worse! They make loud noises! Usually, it would wake us up from our usual afternoon nap! Well guys, those of u who have any solution to this matter can post ur idea as a comment. Bye n c’ya! I’ve got to take care of those monkeys again. Elmo out! N have a happy merry

The Luxury

2004-12-22T11:37:00.000+08:00

Oh, I can still remember the luxury I experienced when my aunt was back from Australia for holidays. I got free chocolates, nice clothes and great storybooks (except for the Harry Potter series). Yea, she brought lots of things back to Malaysia. However, she spent a lot whenever she was here as well. What do u expect? Our money currency was just like water to them. Usually, she would treat us lunch, dinner, or even coffee break. I enjoyed shopping with her as most of the time, she would buy lots of great stuff which I really appreciate them. Now, I truly miss the Starbucks and Coffee Bean’s coffee. Unfortunately, she can’t come back now as she’s in Australia, treating my sister Bob@Sherry like gold. I am sure both of them are enjoying life there. On the other hand, I am suffering like hell! Waiting for the PRM results! Oh my god! The doomsday and the terror will soon come, and I’ll be so dead!!! Alright, I guess that’s about it right now. Gotta run now! Bye n c’ya! Elmo out!

Resutls-Failure

2004-12-20T14:39:00.000+08:00

Results Elmo's Trouble

Hey, what the hell is going on? When will they release the PMR results? I m going to be dead soon. omigosh! N especially if I fail, it'll be the worst! I will be so embarrassed! People will then spread rumors about me. They'll say, 'Do u know that Eu Jin from 3a1? Imagine a student from a good class failed!’ Oh man! N guys, never ever try to console me when I fail, k? I hate that. N please pray for me. Cuz as u guys know, PMR examination is the first important exam that will determine ur future. If i don't do well, my hopes n my dreams will not be fulfilled. Destiny's Child has fulfilled their dreams. What about me? Elmo hasn’t. Elmo still has lots of dreams yet to be fulfilled. These days, how can u earn big bucks without getting good results in ur exams? The only thing u can do is, u can sell pirated cds. Yes, that's a very profitable illegal job. However, the possibility of u getting caught is very large. Kalau kamu meringkuk di dalam penjara, sembahyang hari-hari pun tak berguna lagi. Alright, i m sure all of us wants to earn lots of money. However, without effort, how can we do that? By sitting on the roof, mopping around? I don't think so. N y must some teenagers be so successful? For example, in Europe, students aged 13-17 are mostly very successful. How can that be happening? In Malaysia, how much can u earn? 4 bucks per hour for a promoter? I don't think that's a good salary. No wonder foreigners love to come to Malaysia! To them, our currency is like shit to them. They can at least get 14 bucks per hour for a less tiring job! Think about it. Isn't that a dream come true? U can earn big bucks without any important certificate. N the people there r much more stylish n look better. Furthermore, they speak excellent English. Take for example Malaysians from Kay-Elle. They can only speak Cantonese n other unnecessary languages. Only a handful of them know how to converse in English! Even our national language, Malay! Most of them can pronounce those Malay words! How embarrassing! Imagine a citizen from Malaysia who doesn’t even know how to speak in Malay! In a nutshell, comparatively, Penangnites r far better than Kay-Elle-lians. Besides, the clothes and merchandises sold in Penang r much cheaper! The food in Penang is tastier as well. N r not so stuck-up! Those people in Kay-Elle thinks that they r so great. Their attitudes! Yuck! Meluatkan! Alright, there’s nothing else to say about them. So long for now. Me, signing out as Elmo. Elmo Out!

Brought to u by: 10:05:00
December 20, 2004
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Music n Variety With Elmo

2004-12-13T12:58:00.000+08:00

Music N Variety With Elmo

Hey there, folks. The newest rock album this week was the Collision by Linkin Park N Jay Z. The album was a major sucess. Well, what do u expect? all of them are good singers. Especially Jay Z with his popular rap Encore. Numb/Encore was a big hit. It was in the billboard. I wonder how long can they stay there. However, u musn't forget about other albums. As Christmas is approaching, some people have their special albums jz for this festive season. Clay Aiken, American Idol Season 2's runner-up released a new album, ' Merry Christmas With Love'. It features good songs. However, almost all of them rymes with the usual song, 'Jingle Bells'. Oh yea! And not to be forgotten! Bill Goldberg, the former WWE star made a debut for a movie titled ' Santa's Slay'. It ought to be good as this is a horror-comedy movie. I can't imagine how Bill Goldberg can make people laugh, can you? And 'Ocean's Twelve', a movie starred by celebrities, such as George Coloney, Brad Pitt, Madd Damon, Julia Roberts, Catherine Zeta-Jones, and lots more. besides, it's very funny watching this movie. Especially when the guys were stuck in the prison. haha!! You'll laugh like hell in the cinema's. Oh yea! let's not forget Tiger Cup. Malaysia lost 1-0 to Myanmar, which has been expected. However, there were no crowds. No Malaysians were watching that game. However, most of the spectators were from Myanmar! The Malaysians were trully embarrased as they were playing at their national stadium, Stadium Bukit Jalil! Besides, K.V.Saravanan did not upset the Malaysians. He did a very good job by assisting the players. Unfortunately, luck wasn't on their side. And Manchester United will be playing with Fulham tonight. Will Saha be playing against his former club? We'll have to see about that. Tomorrow morning, 4.00am(Malaysian Time) will be the match. Who will lose? Who will regain supreme? We have to stay up and watch the game. And not to be left out, the Armagedon! Great wrestlers will be fighting againts each other today. Will there be blood lost today? Alright, i guess that's about it right now. Me, signing out as Elmo.
Tiger Beer out!

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December 13, 2004
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whazzup?

2004-12-02T10:10:00.000+08:00

hey therE? omigosh! i m so bored now....nothing else to do. as a matter of fact, i m jz staring at my elmo now....i reckon i m going crazy. remember to visit me in the hospital sakit jiwa when i m in a critical condition, k? thx, dude. erm....skewl holidays suck! i can't play my ps2 cuz itz spoiled. n i m broke. that's y life is so miserable for me. n waiting for my PMR results? god damn it! i don't even want to think about it. i hope u guys won't ignore me if my results r terrible....i might get 7F.....so, prepare for the worst, k? alright, i've got to go now. bye n c'ya. Elmo Out!

Welcome

2004-12-01T11:04:00.000+08:00

haha! welcome my foot! anyway, what's up guys? enjoying urself? i don't think so....anyway, i hope u guys love my blog. but i don't think u will. if u love elmo, u'll like this blog. simple as that! and my PMR results? itz gonna be dead. so, wish me luck in ur prayers n god blez u all. alright, i've got to run now. Elmo Out!